Technicalities

Today I am 8dp3dt.

Eight Days Post Three Day Transfer.

I am also G6P1.

Gravida Six Para One.

Six pregnancies, one birth.

This is one of the hardest posts I think I’ve ever had to write solely based on the emotional toll this is already taking on me. I got a positive on Sunday. The minutes have been eternal.

I will wait until Thursday for the beta, as scheduled. I will then have to wait the 48 hours for another beta, and of course, due largely to my last Gravida that didn’t turn Para back in May/June, I will ask for a third.

I am trying to stay upbeat and excited (not to mention sane) as I have every right to do, but I hope you can appreciate a few simple requests until I can exhale again:

No. 1 – Please, no congratulations yet. Save that for the potential birth;

No. 2 – If you decide to calculate a due date, that’s fine, but please do not tell me or even hint at it;

No. 3 – Please do not suggest multiples. While I am well aware of the risks we started with and the implications of early positives, I also remember back in May I test positive on CD11, and all I got from that was another miscarriage 10 days later.

No. 4 – Please do not suggest that this has broken the “November Curse”. November is not over, and this pregnancy is barely even beginning. This only reminds me of what could have been, and what I selfishly think, should have been.

I’m sorry if I sound rather ungrateful when in fact I shamelessly admit that I am completely and utterly overwhelmed with the possibilities. However, to allow myself to feel so much of what could be good right now, I must also acknowledge that I am acutely fearful of what is to come.

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45 thoughts on “Technicalities”

  1. Man, I get a life for a few days and look what I miss. Am I ever glad to see you got a positive!!! Hoping your betas double and that everything goes as smoothly as possible. I second the sentiment: NBHHY.

  2. I’m sorry I haven’t been around to be of much support. I hope and pray that this one’s a keeper and that life is very different (in a good way) a year from now. PS- I took your suggestion on the name change- I’m just trying to find time to change everything over.

  3. God, woman, I don’t see how you do it. I’d be a nervous wreck, curled up in a ball under my duvet waiting for the end. You truly are one of the strongest woman I’ve ever known [I do feel like I know you after following your blog so much!]

  4. So are you going to keep peeing on sticks? This post is another reason I keep reading – we are so alike – I completely understand (and am living) your requests. Keep holding on to that wingless angel and I will keep you in my hopes.

  5. I’m going to just keep my fingers cross and send up some prayers and well… know we’re thinking of you and rooting for you and I totally understand where you’re coming from. Will go with the nothing bad has happened yet… and hopefully it never will. Hang in there DD… and go give X a hug for me.

  6. Can I give credit to the lucky charm then?
    Nah . . . there is no rhyme or reason to these things . . . only hope.
    So I am staying hopeful for you that the next steps bring you assurances.

  7. How can you be uncomplicatedly happy, after all you’ve been through? I do understand, I felt the same myself at times with this DE pregnancy, after 7 early losses. But it IS different with donor eggs, the chances are so much higher.

    Hang in there. I hope you can keep sane through the initial limbo.

    xx

  8. I had a feeling 😉 and not bad going so far and this is with donar eggs, so maybe baby this time, eh! I know the fears, they don’t go, not sure if that helps but just in case you get this far may as well let them be a part the game.

    Hoping, hoping, hoping…

    XXX

  9. I can tell you a joke or two. I even have some riddles I can share. Limericks I’m not so good at, but I can try – “There was an old man from Blighty…He was very…um…flighty.”

    Anything to keep distractions going and to adhere to the laws, which I fully support and understand, by the way.

  10. Dear DD, that is very good to hear. And the only c word you’ll hear out of me is Can’ttimepleasepassfasterforDDsothisterrifyingtimeisoversoonandpleasemakethisworkthanks.

    Thinking of you. Hoping so hard.

  11. Hmmm. Interesting development. I’ll be checking back like crazy and holding my tongue (or my keyboard, rather) until given the go ahead. Hoping good things happen.

  12. Cautiously Optimistic for you.
    I will also note that you have one very different variable in there in regards to this time.

    You know, I’m just sayin’

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