Because my breasts are losing tenderness and fullness.
Because I’m not as tired in the afternoon anymore.
Because I’m not ravenous at meal times anymore.
Because I can think of nothing else and my work is suffering.
Because I choke back tears every time I realize it’s another whole week.
Because I can’t sleep.
Because I had to tell my allergy physician that I was “technically” pregnant and had to explain.
Because I’ll be seven weeks on Friday and instead of any symptoms getting stronger, they are waning.
Because of these things, I called and asked the clinic for a scan tomorrow.
I’m sorry I couldn’t maintain that positive front and if I disappointed you in anyway.
Because I just don’t believe.