I will honestly admit that I forgot that today was THAT day, THE day set aside by someone who like me – and tragically – like too many others, felt more awareness was needed. Today, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.
And while I forgot that today was that day, I wake up every morning knowing that something is missing from my life. Would I have smiled more, cried more, loved more? Would I have found peace sooner, stopped blogging sooner?
I am reminded of a little trick I use to deal with things that hurt or irritate or anger me in which I ask myself, will it matter in 5 minutes? Will it matter in 5 days? Will it matter in 5 months?
How about in 5 years? I can tell you that for me, it has been 5 years come this November. It still matters. It always will.
- Pregnancy #2: Vivienne Elise – Death November 2004 at 15wks GA, EDD May 2005
- Pregnancy #3: Death December 2005, chemical, EDD September 2006
- Pregnancy #4: Wolf – Death October 2006 at 8wks GA, EDD June 2007
- Pregnancy #5: Death May 2007, EDD February 2008
I don’t light a candle. The small flames flicker in my heart and they will never, ever be extinguished.