For a couple of years I’ve been trying to find some way to honor and give a tangible presence to the babies conceived but never experienced their first breath. I entertained the idea of a tattoo but there were too many obstacles, one being Sparring Partner who has threatened divorce if I ever got inked.
A couple of months ago I saw Joyfully Crafted’s items highlighted on Try Handmade. After looking at my options, I realized that her charms would suit my taste very nicely. They were simple, solid, and pretty.
I placed my order and although her store indicated it might take 4-6 weeks, I received my order within two. Here they are:
The two little charms have Aitch’s and Doodicus’s names and birthdates on them. They flank the large charm.
of my heart
The first date of each line is the month and year I found out the baby had died; the second date is my due date. I was a bit shell-shocked to see all those dates lined up like that – 5, 6, 7, 8. I honestly never realized it before.
A marching of time to a single drum, one only I can hear. While the dates are forever in the past, I hope the charms will be a part of me long into my old age after my memory fails.